It's been a while since my last post. I missed blogging so much.
The past weeks weren't easy for me. My mind, as usual, started its war against me. I though about almost every moment I had in my life. I hate my ability to remember conversations happened years ago. It feels as if I live my past over and over.
I went in my old-known circle of questions that I don't have answers for. Why did I do this? Why did I say that? Why did I go away from this? Why did I get close to that? Where is everyone?
An endless circle of questions that I go through every time I am alone. Of course, every time new questions are added to the circle.
The only time I can break this circle in, is at work when I am surrounded by work load and deliveries. But at the moment I am alone, I jump back into the center of the circle.
I don't talk with people as much as I used to. They are busy or not in the mood to listen or there is a distance between us now. May be this is the reason of feeling alone now. I don't make friends easily, so I know I will be in this state for a while.
As I try to end this state, I decide to try a new solution. I am gonna write a new post everyday for 30 days.
It is gonna be a chance for me to let everything out. There is no specific topics in my mind, it will be just random thoughts I have.
To say the truth, this isn't my idea. I just found it in a friend's post and I think it may help.
Hope it works, and hope I can keep it running for the next 30 days.
Stay tune for my first out of thirty post tomorrow.
The past weeks weren't easy for me. My mind, as usual, started its war against me. I though about almost every moment I had in my life. I hate my ability to remember conversations happened years ago. It feels as if I live my past over and over.
I went in my old-known circle of questions that I don't have answers for. Why did I do this? Why did I say that? Why did I go away from this? Why did I get close to that? Where is everyone?
An endless circle of questions that I go through every time I am alone. Of course, every time new questions are added to the circle.
The only time I can break this circle in, is at work when I am surrounded by work load and deliveries. But at the moment I am alone, I jump back into the center of the circle.
I don't talk with people as much as I used to. They are busy or not in the mood to listen or there is a distance between us now. May be this is the reason of feeling alone now. I don't make friends easily, so I know I will be in this state for a while.
As I try to end this state, I decide to try a new solution. I am gonna write a new post everyday for 30 days.
It is gonna be a chance for me to let everything out. There is no specific topics in my mind, it will be just random thoughts I have.
To say the truth, this isn't my idea. I just found it in a friend's post and I think it may help.
Hope it works, and hope I can keep it running for the next 30 days.
Stay tune for my first out of thirty post tomorrow.
